🌍 Global Noahide Fellowship

Shalom... Since childhood, I was Christian. I grew up in Protestantism and was very devoted to the church for many years. In my late twenties, I discovered the Messianic movement (Christianity in Jewish clothes) and started learning a lot about Judaism. But I got frustrated with the Messianic movement because, for the most part, it was still Christianity. I wandered toward traditional Judaism, but with no Jewish communities near by and feeling quite "left out," I just gave up on religion altogether for a long while. But I missed the fellowship and the worship of God. When I went through hard financial difficulties, I thought that maybe I was being punished for not going to church, so I went back and rededicated myself. I once again prayed and worked hard to realign myself with the Christian Lord. I thought I had done the right thing by going back. I was starting to feel better...I was getting love and support from family and friends. I was even feeling good spiritually...loving JC again like I did when I was a child. But all of my prayers and believing still weren't really improving my life situation/financial problems. Out of desperation, I started wondering what I was doing wrong. Why wasn't God helping me? I watched some YouTube videos from Rabbi Tovia Singer about how JC was idolatry...how he couldn't be God...how he was actually a false deity. So I tried something...I tried to pray without JC. I asked God, and God alone, if he would help me, and, miraculously, He did. Over and over and over again, God began providing for me. Not in big, grand ways, but in very small, consistent, simple, easy, and seamless ways. Suddenly, I noticed that all of my fears and worries about money had vanished. These little miracles proved to me that God cared and that I could trust Him, so the anxieties faded away. Now I know that the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob is the only real God, and I know that the Hebrew scriptures are true and need no extra testament or improved covenant. And I have learned that I am okay as I am...that I am not broken...that all I need to do is trust in the God of Israel and follow His instructions in the life I live. I have thought about full conversion to the Jewish nation, but I am not able to move to a Jewish community. I am a 62-year old widow, disabled, and have two adult children, who are also disabled, living with me. We are poor and without much means of support. We own one home and one car, and both are old and falling apart. We have nothing. I am currently trying to get on government assistance. Anyway...despite all that, I will continue to trust God/HaShem, and I want to become a Righteous person, even if I can't become fully Jewish. But I'm not sure how to get started. Can you, please, help me find the right path back to HaShem and His Torah? Thank you!

Rhonda Young