A Wounded Child and A Heavenly Father, A Poem
By Jelena Derosa
The screaming was loud,
it never seized to stop,
it was endless.
"You're worthless, I don't love you, you will never make it."
She hid under the blanket,
She prayed. "G-d, help me, I can't take it."
At school, they'd make fun of her too,
"She's so weird, she's so ugly, she doesn't belong here.
No matter how hard she tried to fit in, to be loved, to feel worthy, it was clear.
She would not find it here.
Not from her parents, not from anyone else, not even inside herself.
All the hateful words she heard, she kept that within her.
She truly believed them and when she looked in the mirror,
all she whispered was, "you don't deserve to be here."
Her traumas lie deep, she has to unlearn what she's seen and believed.
This poor little girl who's now 28, has a wounded child inside her head.
When she gets triggered, the little girl comes out,
she begs and cries for love and affection.
Sometimes she wonders if she'll ever heal
if she'll ever be fully loved and fulfilled.
Then, she remembers the one Father who will.
He's gotten her through this journey and always will.
Hashem, you are the ultimate healer and savior.
Thank you for your endless love, my Creator.
Brought By Jelena Derosa
Jelena Derosa is a new blogger for the Noahide Academy. She has been an observant Noahide for 3 years and is in the process of conversion. She is married with 3 children and is always coming up with new ways to teach her children about being righteous Noahides. She is a stay at home mom who spends most of her time teaching her children Torah and proper character development. Aside from her children, she spends time blogging, and creating YouTube videos where she shares testimonies in hopes to help someone else learn and heal. She is also building her small business called "Modest Me." She tries to help secular women find G-d and discover the beauty of Modesty and live a modest lifestyle.
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